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== 4 Vintage, 4712 公元 ==

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== 73 8-27 ( 4721 8 月 27 Sun ) ==

The network activity display showed that this page was ~~human~~ accessed and I didn remember it so was surprised to see it, pleased to see that a decade on at a new frontier at about same time of year, spent labor day holiday '14 in the ward above which was much nicer than the ECMC setup. Bigger, a really big room of your own, and not crowded, nice food and staff. I rode my bike to the DSS and it was a loss.

The network activity display showed that this page was accessed and I didn remember it so was surprised to see it, pleased to see that a decade on at a new frontier at about same time of year, spent labor day holiday '14 in the ward above which was much nicer than the ECMC setup. Bigger, a really big room of your own, and not crowded, nice food and staff. I rode my bike to the DSS and it was a loss. Even made a friend who was a pot connection for a while.

I did get a job, my last on-site and there was a general financial upturn which actually began even during the episode above which started in the local DSS office from which I was taken to the ward where the worker mentioned above was. The call for the job actually came while I was in the DSS workers cubicle. That then lead to an on-site job in Buffalo that paid $75K and for the next year or so there was also contracting and at the end of it I could take early social security. In both times that the NYS holding statute (~~9 something~~) was enforced on me, I was in dire straits as far as making ends meet and presented at different social service outlets saying I was suicidal. Actually one time I really was suicidal and was going to do it but a contract came in from Germany which led to the DNS/EPP stuff. That time I woulda and didn go to a social safety net outlet, but the work resolved it.

I did get a job, my last on-site and there was a general financial upturn which actually began even during the episode above which started in the local DSS office from which I was taken to the ward where the worker mentioned above was. The call for the job actually came while I was in the DSS workers cubicle. That then lead to an on-site job in Buffalo that paid $75K and for the next year or so there was also contracting and at the end of it I could take early social security. In both times that the NYS holding statute ([https://omh.ny.gov/omhweb/forensic/manual/html/mhl_admissions.htm <span style="color:lime;">CPEP which was the name of the unit at ECMC</span>]) was enforced on me, I was in dire straits as far as making ends meet and presented at different social service outlets saying I was suicidal. Actually one time I really was suicidal and was going to do it but a contract came in from Germany which led to the DNS/EPP stuff. That time I woulda and didn go to a social safety net outlet, but the work resolved it.

When contracting petered out I became comfortable adapting to social security so that the next thing to overcome is breaking out of ~~that financial~~ rut. The solidification of the social safety net in the form of the forced government pension plan was enough for me and I was quite happy overall a new kind of challenge in a life were previously normally only adversity had to be overcome.

When contracting petered out I became comfortable adapting to social security so that the next thing to overcome is breaking out of a comfy rut of which the lack of earned income is only factor. The solidification of the social safety net in the form of the forced government pension plan was enough for me and I was quite happy overall a new kind of challenge in a life were previously normally only adversity had to be overcome. It is also a big change to finally force earnings outside wage labor production, go old turkey on wage work.

I guess life is full of such transitions. One I'm experiencing now is 'stop watching cartoons'. Ones I'm having a hard time with are like the Apple Foundation second season episodes which because I can view them pirated I waste time on them when I wouldn if I had to pay. And this is very different from not having the money to pay because even if I had billions I wouldn pay and that would block it but being able to get it for nothing requires asserting that it is garbage and a waste of time more effectively. This particular product is just an example and I really mean to include in it all garbagey or noisy or detriminental culture which ofc is the great and overwhelming bulk of it. Just think about time as money only infinitely more valuable igess.

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That's really something isn't it? "Blatantly denies having auditory and visual hallucinations"! You can't make stuff like that up, but sounds that way doesn't it? I think what is blatant is a massive failure of a supposed science and profession.

== TheDeadGuy ==

Suicide not successfully executed but transformative is a well worn trope, e.g. in Zen and the Art of Motorcyle Maintenance and also in social media. TheDeadGuy was/is a user at everything2.com/user/TheDeadGuy who actually made an attempt at a dinner iirc. Typically in this kind of story, the event is seen as a kind of death. Obviously it's not that for me, just a point of transformation.

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 == 73 8-27 ( 4721 8 月 27 Sun ) ==
-The network activity display showed that this page was human accessed and I didn remember it so was surprised to see it, pleased to see that a decade on at a new frontier at about same time of year, spent labor day holiday '14 in the ward above which was much nicer than the ECMC setup. Bigger, a really big room of your own, and not crowded, nice food and staff. I rode my bike to the DSS and it was a loss.
+The network activity display showed that this page was accessed and I didn remember it so was surprised to see it, pleased to see that a decade on at a new frontier at about same time of year, spent labor day holiday '14 in the ward above which was much nicer than the ECMC setup. Bigger, a really big room of your own, and not crowded, nice food and staff. I rode my bike to the DSS and it was a loss. Even made a friend who was a pot connection for a while.
-I did get a job, my last on-site and there was a general financial upturn which actually began even during the episode above which  started in the local DSS office from which I was taken to the ward where the worker mentioned above was. The call for the job actually came while I was in the DSS workers cubicle. That then lead to an on-site job in Buffalo that paid $75K and for the next year or so there was also contracting and at the end of it I could take early social security. In both times that the NYS holding statute (9 something) was enforced on me, I was in dire straits as far as making ends meet and presented at different social service outlets saying I was suicidal. Actually one time I really was suicidal and was going to do it but a contract came in from Germany which led to the DNS/EPP stuff. That time I woulda and didn go to a social safety net outlet, but the work resolved it.
+I did get a job, my last on-site and there was a general financial upturn which actually began even during the episode above which  started in the local DSS office from which I was taken to the ward where the worker mentioned above was. The call for the job actually came while I was in the DSS workers cubicle. That then lead to an on-site job in Buffalo that paid $75K and for the next year or so there was also contracting and at the end of it I could take early social security. In both times that the NYS holding statute ([https://omh.ny.gov/omhweb/forensic/manual/html/mhl_admissions.htm <span style="color:lime;">CPEP which was the name of the unit at ECMC</span>]) was enforced on me, I was in dire straits as far as making ends meet and presented at different social service outlets saying I was suicidal. Actually one time I really was suicidal and was going to do it but a contract came in from Germany which led to the DNS/EPP stuff. That time I woulda and didn go to a social safety net outlet, but the work resolved it.
-When contracting petered out I became comfortable adapting to social security so that the next thing to overcome is breaking out of that financial rut. The solidification of the social safety net in the form of the forced government pension plan was enough for me and I was quite happy overall a new kind of challenge in a life were previously normally only adversity had to be overcome.
+When contracting petered out I became comfortable adapting to social security so that the next thing to overcome is breaking out of a comfy rut of which the lack of earned income is only factor. The solidification of the social safety net in the form of the forced government pension plan was enough for me and I was quite happy overall a new kind of challenge in a life were previously normally only adversity had to be overcome. It is also a big change to finally force earnings outside wage labor production, go old turkey on wage work.
 I guess life is full of such transitions. One I'm experiencing now is 'stop watching cartoons'. Ones I'm having a hard time with are like the Apple Foundation second season episodes which because I can view them pirated I waste time on them when I wouldn if I had to pay. And this is very different from not having the money to pay because even if I had billions I wouldn pay and that would block it but being able to get it for nothing requires asserting that it is garbage and a waste of time more effectively. This particular product is just an example and I really mean to include in it all garbagey or noisy or detriminental culture which ofc is the great and overwhelming bulk of it. Just think about time as money only infinitely more valuable igess.
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 That's really something isn't it? "Blatantly denies having auditory and visual hallucinations"! You can't make stuff like that up, but sounds that way doesn't it? I think what is blatant is a massive failure of a supposed science and profession.
+== TheDeadGuy ==
+Suicide not successfully executed but transformative is a well worn trope, e.g. in Zen and the Art of Motorcyle Maintenance and also in social media. TheDeadGuy was/is a user at everything2.com/user/TheDeadGuy who actually made an attempt at a dinner iirc. Typically in this kind of story, the event is seen as a kind of death. Obviously it's not that for me, just a point of transformation.