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== 73 8-27 (O.S. 4721 黄帝紀年 8 月 27 ) ==

I did get a job, my last on-site and there was a general financial upturn which actually began even during the episode above which actually ~~stated~~ in the local DSS office from which I was taken to the ward where the worker mentioned above was. The call for the job actually came while I was in the DSS workers cubicle. That then lead to an on-site job in Buffalo that paid $75K and for the next year or so there was also contracting and at the end of it I could take early social security. In both times that the NYS holding procedure was enforced on me, I was in dire straits as far as making ends meet and presented at different social service outlets saying I was suicidal. Actually one time I really was suicidal and was going to do it but a contract came in from Germany which led to the DNS/EPP stuff.

I did get a job, my last on-site and there was a general financial upturn which actually began even during the episode above which actually started in the local DSS office from which I was taken to the ward where the worker mentioned above was. The call for the job actually came while I was in the DSS workers cubicle. That then lead to an on-site job in Buffalo that paid $75K and for the next year or so there was also contracting and at the end of it I could take early social security. In both times that the NYS holding procedure was enforced on me, I was in dire straits as far as making ends meet and presented at different social service outlets saying I was suicidal. Actually one time I really was suicidal and was going to do it but a contract came in from Germany which led to the DNS/EPP stuff. That time I woulda and didn go to an social safety net outlet, but the work resolved it.

After Sept '14 that never recurred. When contracting petered out I became comfortable adapting to social security so that the next thing to overcome is breaking out of that financial rut.

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I guess life is full of such transitions. One I'm experiencing now is 'stop watching cartoons'. Ones I'm having a hard time with are like the Apple Foundation second season episodes which because I can view them pirated I waste time on them when I wouldn if I had to pay. And this is very different from not having the money to pay because even if I had billions I wouldn pay and that would block it but being able to get it for nothing requires asserting that it is garbage and a waste of time more effectively. This particular product is just an example and I really mean to include in it all garbagey or noisy or detrminental culture which ofc is the great and overwhelming bulk of it. Just think about time as money only infinitely more valuable igess.

I have all my life thought the I would die by an act of will and dying like my parents did and most people do succumbing to disease, isn't my plan. I don't wanna go naturally in that sense. But I've been thru a lot in terms of dealing with supposedly fatal health conditions and I think I'm doin pretty good. Took a fairly decent life expectancy calculator answering per my current lifestyle and family health history and it gave me 25 years more. I think that's conservative and that I can reach that age and be in a condition that in prior times no one that age could be.

The work challenge now is vastly different from what it was at this time in '14 but I have a sense that like then I'm at a turning point.

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 == 73 8-27 (O.S. 4721 黄帝紀年 8 月 27 ) ==
-I did get a job, my last on-site and there was a general financial upturn which actually began even during the episode above which actually stated in the local DSS office from which I was taken to the ward where the worker mentioned above was. The call for the job actually came while I was in the DSS workers cubicle. That then lead to an on-site job in Buffalo that paid $75K and for the next year or so there was also contracting and at the end of it I could take early social security. In both times that the NYS holding procedure was enforced on me, I was in dire straits as far as making ends meet and presented at different social service outlets saying I was suicidal. Actually one time I really was suicidal and was going to do it but a contract came in from Germany which led to the DNS/EPP stuff.
+I did get a job, my last on-site and there was a general financial upturn which actually began even during the episode above which actually started in the local DSS office from which I was taken to the ward where the worker mentioned above was. The call for the job actually came while I was in the DSS workers cubicle. That then lead to an on-site job in Buffalo that paid $75K and for the next year or so there was also contracting and at the end of it I could take early social security. In both times that the NYS holding procedure was enforced on me, I was in dire straits as far as making ends meet and presented at different social service outlets saying I was suicidal. Actually one time I really was suicidal and was going to do it but a contract came in from Germany which led to the DNS/EPP stuff. That time I woulda and didn go to an social safety net outlet, but the work resolved it.
 After Sept '14 that never recurred. When contracting petered out I became comfortable adapting to social security so that the next thing to overcome is breaking out of that financial rut.
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 I guess life is full of such transitions. One I'm experiencing now is 'stop watching cartoons'. Ones I'm having a hard time with are like the Apple Foundation second season episodes which because I can view them pirated I waste time on them when I wouldn if I had to pay. And this is very different from not having the money to pay because even if I had billions I wouldn pay and that would block it but being able to get it for nothing requires asserting that it is garbage and a waste of time more effectively. This particular product is just an example and I really mean to include in it all garbagey or noisy or detrminental culture which ofc is the great and overwhelming bulk of it. Just think about time as money only infinitely more valuable igess.
+I have all my life thought the I would die by an act of will and dying like my parents did and most people do succumbing to disease, isn't my plan. I don't wanna go naturally in that sense. But I've been thru a lot in terms of dealing with supposedly fatal health conditions and I think I'm doin pretty good. Took a fairly decent life expectancy calculator answering per my current lifestyle and family health history and it gave me 25 years more. I think that's conservative and that I can reach that age and be in a condition that in prior times no one that age could be.
+The work challenge now is vastly different from what it was at this time in '14 but I have a sense that like then I'm at a turning point.